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2 years ago
Thursday 31 December
its new years eve. the year is coming to an end. its been a horrible year where i lost friends but made some along the way. I’ve learnt who can i trust and who I’ve simply lost forever. i always look back at pictures at all the fun times we had. i dont remember just the photos, but small memories like going out, chat sessions and simple smiles and fun. ive improved in my studies. but its not something i can be happy about due to other things happening around me.
and most of all I’m 18. but in this family, they don’t believe in freedom. im still being treated like a child and there is no trust. i mean i do things that they dont approve off and i dont tell them but i still come back in one piece and no trouble.
im happy to have survived another year and that im still wanted as a part of peoples’ lives. i havent lost it all. but i know i could do better. school isnt what it seemed to be. its been a see-saw ride and next year my resolutions are simple:
- im giving up on material stuff, cutting back and paying attention to myself.
thats it. its time to be normal and stop trying to be someone else coz at the end of the day I cant make everyone like me. i cannot keep pleasing people and its time to face facts.
goodbye 2009, hello 2010 and a new me. i know this post is drama-mama but alot of you dont know what ive been through and i dont tell anyone.
for now, im always gonna be a happy kid with my secrets.
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